I created this little graphic for myself (but hope y’all will find it helpful, too). I spent as much of yesterday as work allowed attempting to follow what was going on in Parliament (as I have been for the past 2 1/2 years) and remain none the wiser – it seemed as if each new interviewee had a totally different take on what the votes mean and what’s happening.
Apart from this wider picture, I’m hoping to exchange ANY DAY NOW. Once I do, I can find a place to live in Ireland and actually MOVE.
Still, all this waiting on tenterhooks (and working around the clock too much) has taken it out of me and this morning… well, I went to the high street in my pjs.
They’re lovely pjs and no one would have KNOWN (especially under my winter coat) but I just didn’t have the energy to get dressed to pop into town AND then again after a bath when I got home.
This exceedingly gentle start to the day has helped me and I’m aware that even though my work is all about self-care, I still worry about myself in such moments – am I depressed?
I don’t think so! I adore life and have faith that all is unfolding in Divine Order (if you’ve not read Tosha Silver’s wondrous Outrageous Openness: Letting the Divine Take the Lead, I cannot recommend it highly enough).
Maybe I was a little burned out. I also know that I’m missing my usual at least 2 times a week hour long swims. I can’t tell you how many times, over the years, I’ve got to a certain point (sometimes around 15 minutes in, other times, 50) where I feel ‘Ahhhh. I no longer feel like an amoeba!’ I rarely consciously think I DO feel like an amoeba until this moment of feeling more human.
Still, in anticipation of my move, I cancelled my gym membership ages ago and now that I’m no longer teaching my regular yoga classes, am only swimming there when I cover classes. So swimming isn’t as straightforward as it used to be although I’m fortunate to still have options.
Something else that has an impact is food – in my efforts to eat what’s in my fridge / freezer while attempting to calculate for an as yet unknown moving date means I’m letting myself have crisps / popcorn for dinner more frequently. Delicious as they may be, they lack the nutrients of proper foods so feeling low today means I’m back to vegetable soups etc.
Daily yoga, meditation and EFT helps and this month, I’ve been doing more dynamic yoga practices than my usual home practice.
I’m sharing this in hopes it helps you think about YOUR warning signs and the things that help you when you’re dipping. I’ve become way more resilient over the years and already can’t believe that I was like that this morning. But when we’re IN it, it can be hard to see a way forward.
I hope my tips above help and I’d love to hear how you monitor your mood and choose the things that support you in better helping yourself when you need that self-care the most.